I've written hundreds of post since I last posted, at least in my head, but none have made me feel ok coming back.
A lot has happened in the last 2 years, and for the very large majority it has been not great to plain terrible and painful.
I'm not ready to share all that much as I'm simply not mentally up to rehashing it thoroughly enough that I feel I would have to do to fully explain and give context. I don't know if I will.
But I do know I want to move away from a way of dealing that is essentially a paralyzing anxiety reaction, constantly like a deer caught in headlights.
I've also had a massive amount of health upheavals, including the most recent, I've had 4 Dr/hospital diagnosed since I was 18, TIA (aka mini stroke), or something else that healed enough to hide on scans, since it took me 2 weeks of thinking I one of the worst migraines ever from the flight home from Houston in October.
Again I don't really want to share too many details because honestly it makes me feel like I'm whining or complaining and I've spent too much of my life being shamed for my craptacular health that I cannot help but wanting to hold things closer.
It is very hard to write a quilt blog when things have coincided to keep me either unable financially, physically, emotionally or time-wise to sew. My short term memory and any sense of time is gone.
I've got back into the sewing room in the last few weeks and I hope it keeps up.
One of the big things I'm doing is only working on things I like/want to. I need to get back to where quilting is my therapy, not my stress.
I have been doing Talkin Tuesdays, my quilting chat, over on twitter still and I've even added a second chat, #talknt2, on Wednesdays at 3pm ET (8pmGMT) for those who can't make the original Tuesday chat (#talknt) at 9pmET.
I love these chats and the connection to other quilters. We chat fabric, technique, really anything related to sewing/quilting, and have a lot of fun. Many people have met good friends through the chat and I really couldn't be prouder of that fact.
Join in if you haven't yet one time. It really is a great connection.